Re-cap

It's been so long since I posted an entry here.

Life. It caught up to me and I found myself trapped in middle of this tornado. It was like I was standing in the middle, completely still. Not moving. All the while, everything around me became a blur. I was numb. I couldn't move. Why? What gives people the motive to keep moving forward?

Granted I have wonderful times with my friends, I just can't find myself to feel anything that they're feeling while in the moment. Sometimes, I think I fake it just to get by.

Over the past couple weeks, I went to the Neptunes Beach Club in the Hamptons, dinner dates with the girls and dating around. It's just that everywhere I go, there is this feeling on my back that I can't rid myself from. It won't leave. It follows me, until I'm vulnerable to let it in.

I need to find salvation but I just don't know where to begin....