Yesterday I met with Andrea. We had chicken and rice and a looooong discussion. From life, to relationships, friends and family. It feels so good to know I'm not alone. Everything that she's gone through, I've been through myself. She was telling me how wonderful her boyfriend was. While she was talking, I found myself missing my ex. Well, the good things at least. An answer inside me told me, you grew up. Let it go.
After my discussion with Andrea, I decided I would find a distraction. Like another focal point. In the end, everything else will fall into place. With that, I decided I would make plans to go somewhere, just by myself, on a beach to sit and relax. Granted I still wanted excitement, I decided that I would find something else to excite me.
I've been talking to guys and everything is becoming a process. I'm so sick and tired of it, honestly. The process of getting to know each other. The risk of getting your heart broken. So, screw it. Here on it's me, myself and I.
Tomorrow I'm meeting with Lijah. For a drink. Nothing more. I did say because it's a school night, we'll limit it to one. Just as friends. Nothing more. Conversation. That's all I want.
Hopefully I won't clam up....
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