Had such an amazing time with the girls last night. We went to Grande Cafe in Astoria. House music, light food, wine and patron. Afterward, we went to a hookah bar where Ami and I danced with the Arabic girl singing. Good times. As the night went on, Brian was texting me until he went to sleep.

Ami was telling me about her trip to the Bahama's with the London guy she randomly met there for the first time and get this....they're dating now! This give me hope that maybe I can make it work with Brian. The guy that she's seeing is tall, white and into music like Brian is. So why was I fussing over the littlest shit? Believe it or not, I wished Brian was home for me to go home to. Watching a movie with him 'till I fell asleep. I want this. And surprisingly he's someone I think I want this with.

I took my time and woke up this morning. During the week Brian asked me to dinner today, Indian food. He loves Indian food. So I called him and we set to meet at a restaurant near Union Square at 7pm. I came back to Manhattan and settled in for a bit. I also met Chiara's mom before heading out. I wore my cream flower dress with black tights and boots.

The first thing Brian said when we sat that was "You look amazing and smell really good." Such a charmer. I was super shy but as we continued talking I felt back to myself. After some amazing food and wine he asked me to go back to that beer brewery he took me to when we first met. I was so down, because I loved how everything was going. I ordered one more glass of wine and he had two beers. I couldn't help but say to myself, gosh he's so handsome. I'd be a fool to let go.

As he walked me back to my train, he waited with me until it came then.....he kissed me. It was a dry kiss but very tolerable. Why? Because it was soft and sensual. I didn't want to stop. It felt so good. I was...amazed.

As I got home, I got a text from him saying he got home and that I "truly are exquisite." This made me so happy.

For once, am I actually enjoying this guys company? Am I actually ready to see him again and see how far this will go? Will I lose interest as I have in the other men that I met? God, I hope not. I can only hope that this was it. That he is for me.

For now, it's one day at a time...