So Paula and I planned it that we'd meet these fellas, separately in LES for an hour then walk to Labyrinth. (We picked LES so the commute would be easier for us.)
After work, I rushed home to grab Bella and her stuff. Paula is cat sitting for a week while Chiara's mom is in town (she's not crazy about cats) so I decided I would crash by Paula's for the night. Moreno's staying with JP for the week as well so we cabbed from home to JP, dropped Moreno off then I cabbed it to Paula's.
Getting ready, having our girl talks then we took the train to Manhattan. Brian actually texted me before we left, to have a good time. It made me feel warm inside. I actually liked that he did :)
Anyways, Paula and I split at Union Square.
I walked to where I was supposed to meet Ian at bar called The Blind Pig which was located on 14th Street bt 2nd and 3rd Avenue. It was 11:40pm. So I had an hour and 20 minutes to hang. I walked and saw him sitting by himself at the bar, with an empty seat next to him. It was the only empty seat next to a guy in the bar, so I could only assume it was him. He noticed me and smiled. I sat down as he ordered me a beer. We talked and talked and talked.....first about sports which I could give a shit about. Then about music, his background....etc. See, he's slightly above average for me to be attracted to. He has awesome hair, it's just.....eh. I didn't connect with him on that level I was hoping too. It just felt like meet with a good ol friend. He told me he cabbed it downtown to meet me and told me he'd go back uptown to meet his friends, which was cool. I'm glad he's make an effort to do at least that.
Paula texts me 20 minutes before 1am and said she left. It didn't go as great with her as she assumed it would be. She said it was so easy for her to say "Oh, well you know. I gotta go meet my friend, it's getting late." Which is totally bad, because usually when you're having a good time you would hesitate to make a comment like that.
So Ian walked with me on 14th to Avenue A. I had to go to Avenue C as he cabbed it back from Avenue A. I think we'll just be friends at this point.
As I walked to Labyrinth, I stopped by Otto's and passed by White Noise (which I contemplated on going in). As soon as I got to Labyrinth, Paula was there drinking her Sangria with Adrian and Michael. Jason, Ed, Jorge...etc was there too. It wasn't a good night for Rob though. There was another party at Absolution where there was a guest DJ and it totally killed his night. I felt bad. I hate seeing him so down like that, but he's OK.
So I danced with Ed here and there. He's adorable but I see him nothing more. Although we got a little touchy-grabby-"kissy on the cheeky" dancing, it's all that it was. As I sat down a few songs, watching some couples enjoying themselves with their significant others and one person came to mind that I actually thought about doing that with. It was Brian.
I just thought about having him there, cuddling with him with I go home...etc. What was wrong with me?! Just the other day I was thinking about the littlest things.
He was in my thoughts like...almost all night at Labyrinth. I envisioned partying with my friends then going home to see him, waiting for me (just like my ex Rob used to do). What was happening? Why these thoughts? Is this what I really want? I guess only time will tell.
As I left for the night with Paula, Ed and Sebastian took the train home with us. We didn't settle in until about 5ish. Rob actually came over too and crashed here.
This morning Paula left me here at her place because she had to go meet with her mom. She left me the keys to lock up before I left, as Rob left with her. Paula calls me and tells me her and Rob are back on. Rob told her he did love her, he was just scared and he wants her to meet his family. See, like all my friends are getting into these relationships. This feeling is something I want and I think I see Brian as that person (for now).
Ian texted me and said he had a good time with me. Granted I feel the same, but just not in that way. Brian also texted me. I was so straight forward with him telling him I had this urge to text him at 6am. So we're going to make plans today to meet for dinner tomorrow. I can't wait to see him again. I just hope I don't get back in to this feeling of wanting to push something good away as I nitpick at the littlest shit.
Tonight- It's me, Ami, Amanda and Kate. Dinner/drinks then party with the girls? First I have to get off this couch, shower, go to moms then back home to get ready.
And the day begins....
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