On Wednesday, March 24th, I turned 25. It's a good feeling when people wish you a Happy Birthday. Like a warm feeling just washes over your heart.

At work, Paula organized cutting of the cake at the office. She also got me a cute card of a hog kissing in the middle. It pops out when you open it and Jason signed the pout, like dead smack in the middle! I think nothing of this though.

Anyways, Paula asked me grab a beer at Bulls Head. Brian wanted to meet with me "even for like a few minutes for my birthday." I assumed he was getting me a gift. I actually didn't want gifts from anyone, just company. So I told him I would meet him at Union later in the evening. An hour passed and guess who walks though the door? Al and Paulina. I was surprised to see them. Just thought they passed by, nothing more. Then Rob walks in! That was when I knew that Paula set this up. What really made my night was when Chiara walked in. Followed by Moreno. Like, everything was PERFECT. I was so happy to see them.

This was all that I wanted. Everyone that I actually cared about, with me having a few drinks for my bday. I invited Chris to come too ("Ginsu" as Rob would call him) He just finished class at Baruch. I haven't seen him in so long and man, did he look....good.

So Paula told me I should call Brian and tell him to meet me at Bulls Head, since he did say it was for a few minutes. Mind you, Chris was still there. So, Brian comes and in his hand is A ROSE. Like....WHY? Firstly, I wasn't ready for you to meet my friends, but you show up here with a ROSE in your hand to give to me. WHY would you do that? What if I don't want my friends to know I'm talking to you. I quickly put the Rose on the table. I then say that Chris started to leave. I hope he didn't see and I hope he wasn't upset. But he gave me a kiss on my hand and told me he would meet with me soon.

As he left, Brian asks me "Should I grab a drink, looks like you guys are staying here for a bit?" I didn't know how to say no, so I mentioned him to do so. I shared this look on my face with Chiara and Paula and they IMMEDIATELY know how I felt.

I know this isn't what I want anymore. Why do I get like this? I thought he was it. But I lose interest almost immediately when a guy is too....mush.

Everyone started to leave one by one then it was me, Chiara and Brian. We walked to the train and as Brian was walking to the 6 downtown, we parted ways. Did he really have to wave like Forest Gump when he said bye? Because that's exactly what he did. When Chiara and I were walking home, we stopped by a pizza shop and had a nice long discussion. I like talking to her. She's actually realistic.

As for my Friday night, we were supposed to go to Dead Heaven but ended up with baked brownies and Netflix. Nights in at a time are so key.

And today is Resh's bday party. Amritha told me I could crash by her. I can't wait to see everyone. I need to do something different for once....