I know it was just last weekend that I enjoyed my time spending with Brian but he's turning into a peach! Let me explain:

After his text messages, he asks me "a smooch." Ok. I'm not in a relationship with you. DO NOT proceed to smother me with this kind of stuff when we are supposed to be having fun, getting to know each other. It bothers me like shit that I feel this way. Maybe I'm the abnormal one. Or maybe relationships are not for me. I want to be able to like him how I did, but its starting to push me away. I'm too much of a punk to tell him how I feel. I don't how to express myself. Granted he's a wonderful guy; I just can't help that I feel this way about a guy who's like super sweet.

Last night I took the LIRR with Ami to Baldwin. I was supposed to meet with Allen to pick up my D3100 I bought from him. He told me we'd grab something to eat and he'll show me how it works. I invited Ami to come along but she wanted to go home, long day. Allen ended up taking me to a fancy restaurant. There were only two of these Asian Bistro cuisines in NY. Fancy shmancy. We talked about everything. Despite the fact that I overlooked him in that way, getting to know his intellect and what he is about is quite intriguing. I pictured myself if I were to date someone like him. A voice inside of me whispers, "You're not ready." So when will I be?

Anyways, Allen was kind enough to pay for dinner. He told me it was my early bday present. I was very grateful for this. I also couldn't wait to go home and test out my new camera. Allen also drove me back home. He had to meet a few friends anyways, so he told me it was no biggie. Conversations like no tomorrow. He's a great guy. I don't see why he's single. Then again, I am. And look at me.

Chiara left for Boston earlier in the morning. She'll be back on Monday so basically I have the whole house to my self but with no one to share it with. Fun, I know.

Melissa's having her bday at SEA tonight. I know she she will be terribly disappointed if I don't make it. I'm like her sister. I have to be there. Shelly called off. She had stuff to do with Dale's family. Guess that's what happens with you married huh?

I'm looking forward to a good time. Maybe I'll do something fun after. Maybe not. It's still early anyways, so anything can happen.